hais.. today went to work halfway den suddenly feel fuckin sick den moii boss mi go c doc..
so ii went bedok to c and the doc gave mii 2 days mc but in the end i had to go back work tmr if not is a unpaid leave.. lol..

wat the hell sia.. haha..
anyway im alrite le just tat ii feel a lil bit giddyness nia.. haah... sians..
life is so boring sia.. haha...
dunno wat to say..

i had a feelin to search for satanic demons and all kinds of things..
ii wish ii had the evil power and possess on mii..
haha.. think too much le..
lol..
i shall continue moii research moii satanic.. haha...

lol
..

hah.. im SICK... feelin terribles...

sians.. vomits and shit coming out from moii body and feeling difficult lo..
dunno able to go work tmr.. feelin uneasy lo.. sianz..

im just wan to die and stop suffer from this torture.. haha...
ii go slp le.. c how ii feel tmr ba.. yesterday was feeling terribles..
lol..

boring days...

life for mii iis still going on..
recently like a song by jeff zhang xin ze - you yi dian dong xin..

tat song was intro by someone and i like it very much..
keep listen this song make mii think of how ii treat him very badd..
all ii can say iis sorrie that how ii treat eu and how much eu love mii..
but things are wat we wan to do..
hais..

anyway life iis like and smoking habit is getting stronger cos of workin environment and ii smoke one pack a day. hais..
haha..

ii can be alone. ii dun neeed anyone care cos ii can take care myself i think..
hais.. im just a ger.. wat can eu do.. hais..

miss those old days when everyone is enjoyin and no troubles but all change le.
hais..

im alrite.. haha...

haha..
love moii blog more le..
haha..
siao hor..

sianz.. life getting boring sia..
so BORED.. haha..

workin boring sia.. everyday eat smoke and sit there..
long hours some more sia.
but today ii work 1 months. le..
haha..

*cOngrate mEiiyan*

sian..
ii shall continue tmr ba..

love the song hurt by christina aguilera..
haha..

hais..

maybe problems occur sia.. sians..
ii dunno wat to do le..
maybe be wat ii use to be iis better..
haha..
sianz..
tmr workin sia.. boring lo.. haha..

must slp le.. if not cannot wake up den die sia.. haha..

sian..
ii just found out that this yr new yrs damn boring sia..
ii dunno la..

ii hate everyone sia.. nothin important sia..
siaanz..........

boring days...

yeahh..!!!
chinese new year...!!! cant wait till morning.. cos ii can get to wear moii heels.. im so excited sia..
reallii..

den must get alot of ang baos .. haha... yeah..
dun feel like sleepin now wor.. haha..
but den if nv slp not nice lo..

tmr must becum pretty...
be the best of mii..
haha..

go orh orh le.. sianz..
bb... haha..
miss mii lala.. meiiyan..

yeah!!!
ii bought moiiself a jean and a pair of heel.. haha..
simply love moii heel okie...
haha...
tmr continue buy but cannot buy mani things..
wait i no money den die.. haha..

must start wearing heel le and like moii cousin..
must becum mei mei like them..
haha...

sianz..
new yr coming den must strive for the best..
haha..
must work hard and do well in everythings...

last but not least..
im still love moii heel alot..
muacks..

just now iis valentine day wor..
this yr iis our second time celebrated..
he gif mii a balloon ..

hais.. nth special just tat i dunno wat am ii thinkin..
nvm..
iis end le.
maybe iis good for him and mii too..
yeah..
i should happy but no sad..
he can find a better ger and no point wait for mii..

boing this few days or weeks cos im busy workin..
damn tire okie..
haha.. but quite enjoy at moii workin place..
smoke freely sia..

hope this year iis a good yr for mii for him and for everyones...
yeah..

fuck it man..
sianz..
im just simply tire of moii life le..
alot of things happen but it came to the end le ba..
hope so..

i just love moiiself, moii soul, moii devil..

haiz.. another time getting moiiself hurt and feel uneasy again..
haiz.

why he like tat treat mii.. feel bored den find mii..
why.. sian..
ii realli damn feel uneasy..
FUCKING HELL..

cheebye.. fucking uneasy.. wan to die sia..
why he like dat.. ii changing to a better person or to wat he wan miii to be...
go die la.. gt bf still wan msg other ppl must eat.. eat shit la..

fucking hell..
all rot in hell la..

things happen wasn't wat ii thinks. haiz.
love him alot y he like dat treat mii.. sianz..
ii willin to change yet he say wat to mii..

ii wan like lAst time but he say can't cos watii done to him make him feel heartbrokenno more strong feelin like last time.. and wat can ii do now is to make himlove mii again.. *sobsob*

ii realli wan to cry.. ii shouldn't be demanding so ii can do is tolerate..

FUCK UP LIFE I HAD

wat should ii do.. haiz..

things hope better as times go by.

WAT U WAN MII TO DO!!!!!

today 14th months anniversary den u purposely wan find quarrel de.. wat u wan..
u must follow wat ii do rite..chee bye kia...
fucking bitchs..
dun act an A level student la.. cheebye..
fuck it la..

tire of everythings.. damn fucking tire.. sianz.......

im so sad...
chee bye mii is a stupid ger.
fucking hate mii...
might as well go die la..
chee bye....

all forget mii la..
chee bye hate meiiyan alot la..
fucking hell..

moii life is in complicated..
ii almost lose moii baobeii and lucky tat we back together again..

all things happen on mii which things come all together which iii dun wan to face the problems..
haiz.
is all moii fault and i dunno wat to say or face them..
haiz..
god dun help mii and ii had to face moiiself.. why like dat..

ii will promiseto euu tat ii will change and please trust mii hao ma..
haiz..

hope no more problems anymore..
hope mii and moii baobeii live happily ever after like we used to be..
ii love eu.....