ii just realise something tat OUR LOVE IS VANISHING SOON AS TIME GOES BY..
hais..
iis ii who ruin everything to tis relationship..
ii shouldnt regret anything as wat the endin iis..

i fuckin hate moiiself..
and moii life seem so black and no more colours le..
no more happy meii yan..

ii was tryin to force myself to smile at eu but ii cant as ii feel tat u dun love mii anymore le..
i dunno wat to do..
i feel tat no friends could be there wif mii when ii need someone ...
i also dun bother them cos ii kept everything to mii
and soon ii will burst like a balloon who cant take so much..
den it will end of moi story..

everythings happen to fast and ii cant accept ... i just dunno wat to do and
all i noe iis to cry.. hais..
moii story of life seem so sad but who the one who make it like dat..
iis mii of moii wrong choices..

i admit i make of alot of mistake in moii life.. but tat facts that i am like dat..
nobody seem to understand of mii ...
iis okie..
hais..

i only hope tat time could go back but ii noe iis cant..

hais.. feel like cryin.. "for fuck la cb"
work so tire yet im still get like like tat..
no more miss nice le.. he just a cb fucker lo..

wat for keep cursing him.. no point la..
im still get the hurt... hais..
i hate the feelin when ii wan to cry...

dun care.. hais.. just dun feel like typin le.. hais,..
ii need a cool down..

been not update any post somemore pic also leii... wat for write.. hais..

finally i found back moii ic leiii.. so happy.. luckily i reported to police and the sent a letter tellin mii go and received back.. den like dat ii can save money on doin it.. haha.. heng ar.. dunno which kind soul return moii ic sia.. thanks ar..

so funny sia.. cos moii current workin place need to call server to do money transaction and the server asked a mii a question.. "how old am ii cos your voice sound so young.." i was so shocked and funny.. lol..

the other thing happen on the same day.. ii went to buy cigarette at opp coffeshop den the auntie ASK mii the same question.. hello.. im 19 soon okie,.. do i still look very young.. den the auntie wa like wan to sell to mii but she still thinkin and askin mii whether im over 18 and say mii look like 14.. please.. there a big diff okie btween a 14 and a 19. hais.. she say ask mii to produce moii ic but moii ic was lost.. she told mii she can be caught if she sell to a person who under 18 den ii was angry and told her if she kena caught find mii ..
den at this point of time her supervisor came .. she not saving mii.. and even say no ic cant buy.
OH GOSH.. sad...
tat funny incident. sian. haha.. lol..

ii was so tire recently copin moii work moii relationship moii friends and money..
all ruin la..
sian.. haha..
nvm.. at least im young.. lol.. sian..

hais.....

im still sick and moii chest veri de pain when i cough.. hais.

pain pain and nobody care beside moii family..lol..

hais.. i hate the fatty

hais.. im sick and not feelin well again.,.. sian..
cb quaareel again.. hais.. im worst.. im worst and qworst of all.. sian... i hate moiiself.. cb fucke.r..

today is ah lim birthday sia... hahaa...
wish him good luck and all the best.. haha..

ais..im still workin sia.. haha.. sian..
today work late and ii dun think im goin hm cos baobeii here ma.. haha.. lol... sian..

im so unlucky last weekend..
ii lost moii ic on sat and ii lost moii and baobeii memory cards on sunday night.. cb..
dunno where ii lost it.. fuck sia.. haha..
sian... lol...

btw im so tire u noehd.. im sick and coughing so jialet sia.. haha.. haha..
lol..
so bored.. dun tok le...
so lazy..

hais.. i think ii lost moii ic sia.. but ii remember ii gt put inside moii wallet den how come iis lost.. hais.. i dunno leiii.. sian.. i dunno wat to do leii..
i haven tell moii deardear leii...
he sure angry de... haha..

sian.. i feel so sick i think ba.. maybe not.. who noe.
hais...
im so sick and tire..
i go rest le ba.. nite nite..

hais.. so envious those ppls .. haha..
"wat for envious mei yan.. is u youself make this situation till like dat.." hais..
maybe ba.. dunno.. moii head so pain yet nobody care .. nvm..
iis alrite de cos i dun need anyone care anymore..

remember the old meii yan is dead.. the new meiiyan shall be independent de..
iim be alone and dun need any one to be ther for mii. after today of 9 april 2007...
im tire of living in those days le..
take it or leave it..
i shall honour mooii words..

hais.. today quarrel wiff moii baobeii because of his.. like wat ii say just now in moii previous post.. hais..
feel so dis-hearted le.. yeah..

but just now gt idiotic customer nealy very wat lo.. haha..
siao ar.. wat am ii tokin about sia..

anyway feel so stress sia u noe.. hais..
count moii settlement until ii die sia.. sian..
den all stress up den plus moii baobeii things. fuck up and boring sia..
nearly cry u noe.. but he doesnt noe cos he say i cried will make him feel so stress.. sian...

wat should ii do..
so DISHEARTED le...
sian..

go slp le.. tire okie.. nite..
haha..

hais...
been tire of workin this currently job le.. i fuckin it.. sian...
wat doo ii gain..
ii will accompany u when eu work..but ii leii..
so wat u be wif mii when ii work.. u just acc your com and after awhile u left mii..
wat the point of ii keep workin here.. im just feel bored le.. u noe.
i hate it la.. cb fucker...

den u caan vent anger on mii but ii can'.t.. hais..
i wun bother u whether u gt come up and be wif mii le..
ii realli wun bother le..
i dun gif a damn la cb..

u r motherfucker.. cb kia..
need mii den tok nicely to mii ..
dun need fuck care mi.. hais..

i sick and tire of tis things le..
hais..

ii wun bother u whether gt be wif mii ma..
i wun bother u whether gt care for mii ...
ii wun bother u whether u wan to msg mii...
ii wun bother u whether u wan to go chiong anot..
ii just wun bother le..
im just feel sick and tire of everything le..
i hate it..
cb motherfucker..

hais.. been workin for 6 days le.. tire and boring sia.. boring leii..
deardear not wif mii.. he cb wan..
dun giff a damn on him anyway..

tat day ii went back to moii shop take pay and moii boss was very nice sia...
serious la.. they are nice .. but den ii feel paiseh so ii didn't went back to work.. hais..
mii iis like tat de.. haha. and even ask mii do moii currently job..
but he say i wan to come back work cal him lo.
i wun de la.. paiseh sia.. u noe..

sian..
till i haven met someone who had evil poweer..
i wan it okie..


hais.. i was late today for moi work.. haha...

cos yesterday we went to ripples bar also nOe aS rUsh.. haha.. we went down a big grouP siA.. like we uSeD tO be.. haha...
gT alOt liKe dA cHriS jOnaS xiaO ChRiS aH bEn linG linG ah an tat gRouP aH hOnG euGenE jaYsOn maMbO beNny pat anD sOme ii duNno thEir namE lo and we shout
. haha.. very enjOy..
den deardear disturb one ang moh sia.. stupid..
eeekkk.. ' sO Er xin sia...'

evEn the five ppl from yisHun alsO comE dOwn enjOy leii...
but 3 out fivE can't go in coS thEy still 15 ok.,. haha.. nvm.. thEy stilL can gO in next timE leii..
den we all shOut sia...
den actaually 2 can go in de.. but becus one of them is ddrag by the other fellow. sad..
d\the other wan is only remember the person ic number nia..
should memorised everything cos if the bouncer suspect ur ic is not ur they ask u the particular ma..
somemore he only remember his ic nia.. haha.. sad lo..
nvm.they get to enjoy soon la.. haha..

ii only can say iis very enjoying ... haha..
den afteR there we went tO 97 to continue enjOy but den nOt so fun cos all auntie uncle place wan ... somehow tire also la.. haha..
we stay there awhile den go le... tire okie.. sian..

den morning waste another 40 dollars just because we overslept.. wtf sia.. cb..
hais.. sad.. sad,.. like tat total we pay 60 bucks u noe.. sian..
like tat might as well one nite liao u noe.. fuck ...
hhaa...

im so tire and sleepy sia. haha..
have to work lo.. sian..
haa..

ENJOY.