hais... somehow i feel im realli lonely in the sense that no true friends...

as moii him.. i feel disappointed le.. and ii nothin to say abt him.. sian.. no point le..

im so bored cos im nw workin ma.. boring okie.. hais...
now moii first thing ii wan to do when ii get money iis to rebond moii fuckin hair le..
haha... serious.. im tire of everything and even im tire of moii fuckin hair moii nose or moii eye okie..

im very particular of moii appearance.. something moii mood change also because of it lo.. haha.. siao hor.. lame...
anyway.. ii just want to becum meii meii den mi shall moii confident to be back.. haha..

sian.. go play game le. lol.

siaan sian.. now ii workin sia..
i also didnt expect tat ii could wakeup so early at home to go work..
now no ppl..
where iis all the ppls sia...

soooooo boring... anyway he treeat mii soo good nowadays.. he wun anyhow scold mii sia.. isit i told him i feel so less hearted to this relationship.. hais..

do ii give a damn but maybe ii do... u noe.. sianz... dunno le..
just c how first...

sian..

haha... today i first day workin sia.. sian.. hahah.. but enjoyable cos baobeii wif mii ma.. haha..

anyway i quite confuse about the money things lo.. haha..
but nvm la. slowly lo.. so sian anyway.. dunno do wat sia..

BORING SIA... haha..

haha.. i changE skin again le.. haha.. this skin was created on 4 Dec 2006 which fall on our one yr anniversary..
this skin so sweet wor.. haha.. lol... sian..

start workin le..
and hope more money come.. yeah.. haha.. sian.. dunno wat to do sia so i change skin again lo..
haha
love moii skin alot sia..
muacks..

now dear dear was sleepin cos he very de tire sia.. so i take over his shift ...

ai yo.. tmr den type lo..
now workin .. haha..

haha.. now doin nth sia at somewhere at singapore... sian..
waititng for moii gunbound to download.. sianz..

dunnno wan to work ma.. but the pay iis so attractive u noe.. hais.. but ii have to work at nite till morning.. sian.. but deardear will be here wif mii to work..

cos suppose tmr i will be tryin out at one of the shop at bugis.. the pay over there also quite good.. starting pay wil be $1200.. haha.. but tat wan is moore good lo.. sian..

if i work tat wan will be no movie at nite will deardear moii tou and moii ppls.. hais.. dunno should ii work ma.. sianz..

now i dunno wat to choose..
a job tat i dun need to wake up early but ii will miss moii nite life u c.. sian.. tel mii..

fuk it .. dun think first la.. cb..

change skin again lo.. kinda bored at hm sia..
but now is 4.25am and yet stil can go where .,. no money and no honey sia.. lol...
i feel so hot now and i wan faint liao..

hais.. dunno leii.. no feelin for him but somehow i still hang on to tis relationship cos ii still love hhim miss hhim and care for him u noe..
wat am i tokin sia..
even though wat friends say him not good thou ii agree ii still can't let go.. dunno leii.. sian...

ii only can c how lo..
btw no jobs. so sian.. no money also.. why ar... boring sia..

ii soo miss jia wei, shi en, cindy and more.. haha...

c how life CAn be so boring wif no money too..

i hated moii life soo much..
fuckin cb bastard ..

u make mii like dat de..
no more weak meiiyan le..


i hate u ... u just a bastard...
fuck it.. go die..

hais.. all moii fault again..

sians.. im sorrie..

OLD MEI YAN IS GONE...

sian.. i learnin to be strong and dun feel sad over things le..
hais..

well after everything.. is the bastard and bitch tat jade doing all sort of things.
hais.. sad heart or should broken heART shattered on the floor.. im tire all everythings...

im here to thanks everyone who with mii when im sad..
jiangsi meiling ah lim and last but not least jun hong moii sec friend.
THANK YOU.

u been there for mii and give mii advice although i dun wish to listen but THANKS..
the path is i choose de.. thanks..

hais.. i dunno sia..

anyway bitch the jade.. thanks.. GO JOB..
cb kia.. knn.. motherfucker..

haha... im not childish.. i just scold for fun.. cheers..

FUCKING HATE EU BITCH..

WHY U LIKE DAT TREAT..
U CHANGE.
U CAN FORGET JUST LESS THAN 24 HOURS.. WHY...
I DID REALLI YET U LIKE TAT BITCH...
FUCKING BITCH... U DENY BUT I CAN FEEL IT FROM UR EXPRESSION AND HOW UR REACTION TOWARD MII AND HER...
IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT U NOE..

MOII HEART DAMN PAIN U DUNNO..
U ASK MII TO SHOUT UP WHEN II CRIED BUT U OFFER TISSUES TO OTHER ...
WHY..
IM UR GF NOT THEM..
DUN GIF MII EXCUES OF SAYING WE BEING TOO LONG..
IS RUBBISH U NOE...

CB KIA..

ROT IN HELL FOREVER..
FUCKING MOTHERFUCKER CB...

ALL FUCKING CB...

I NOE IIS MI..

STOP REMIND MI...

ALL LEAVE MII ALONE...

IM NO ONE..

I CANT COMPARE TO SOMEONE WHO BETTER MII...
IN FACT I HAD REALLY TRY MOII BEST LE..

HOPE THOSE ROT IN HELLL...............



SATANIC DEMON WHERE R EU.
I REALLI NEED EU TO COME TO MII.

life for mii iis still the same..
but abit bpred.. no lifestyle..

IM UGLY..
haha.. sians...

dunnno wat everyone iis doing and wat will ii be..
but ii believe retribution.. yeah...

tire le..
go slp le if not cannot wake up die.. haha..

hais... ii now at somewhere.. haha.. lol..

just nw nearly gt taiji sia..
this time iis he gt taiji lo...

he DRUNK.. hais... dunno wat to say.. at least he now dun feel stress can le..
im onli can say sorrie and sorrie and sorrie..
sad...

going to play game le.. haha.. tmr workin sian.. and ii now feel very hungry.. iis damn hungry.. lol..
later eat maggie mee.. nice food okie..

hais...
feelin numb and pain as if lots of sharp sharp things poking mii and fucking hurt..

IS NOT MOII FAULT WHY BLAME MII...

fucker.. chat wif mii first den is moii fault.. why. i didn't do anythings wrong...
thou i made a mistake before but ii trying to change.. can't eu c it.. wat ii done for eu.. why u like tat.. u noe..

i can't explain to eu but ue dun wan to listen..
i try moii best to change but eu say to mii wat ii wan to do iis up to mii..
i try to follow wat u say but ue say no point..
i try to tolerate everythings but ue say for wat wan break say la..

have eu realli tryin to put yourself in moii shoes when u are rite but being accuse of wrong..
eespecially to someone u realli love and tryin to change for him..
iis very pain de u noe....

ii realli trying to change and ii dun mind wat eu say about mii..
cos ii noe iis moii fault and ii willing to change...

i dunno la..
i just feel deeply hurt..
hais..

fucking idiot bitch...
fucking hell..
rot in hell...'

ALLLL ROOOT INN HELLL...

lol..
ii still wondering how moii life iis.. hah... sians.
life iis so bored..

yeah.. tmr meetin moii baobeii..haha.. den wed im off.. yesh...

ii gt so mani wishes.. like getting car, stay happily ever after wif moii baobeii... and everythings ii wish to be.. a pretty ger.. haha..
lol.. isit too much.. sians..

going to slp le.. tire le.. sians... tmr meetin him le.. yeah..
miss eu baobeii..
u moii everythings..

yeah on 4 march 2007 which is 7 minuutes ago ..
iis our 15th months anniversary..
miss him alot..
ii learning to change and prove to him tat ii will change..
love him alot..
thanks dear of wat euu had done for mii.. muacks..

hais.. been thinkin and hope iis not turn out to wat the bad.. haha..
false alarm..
lol..
boring..

sians.. no money...