Why is not raining tonight?
Why is not 3am?

Why am i doing here? I shouldnt be here.

Should be in heaven .



Yesterday feeling not good at all =( have the urge of crying.

Been thinking all these year as when I grow up, WHAT DO I WANT EXACTLY.
Asking this question lot of times and seriously I cant find the answer.

Promise myself will become into better person (after listening to darling xueli's karma story, which i also believe) and prepare myself for the day.
You are always in my mind ever since the day.
I'm stubborn lil bull :)


Been searching for a nice bag high and low. =(
Plus bad hair day EVERYDAY especially my fringe.
Don't know want to keep it longer or cut it short again.
Thinking of keep it long and see what it turn out to be. ha-ha.

Anyway FINALLY went to Double 0 Wednesday with darling xueli and lovely janice =)
Since is a ladies night, I mean go have a look. I will say I prefer old one, as more crowded and bigger space. Their music don't really suit me =( all along I love double O, don't know why.

Weekend again -_-

One more week to PAY DAY :)


i miss you so much.

It been awhile since i post anything over here.
Many things happened and i don't know where to start or i don't wish to say .

I am very insensitive toward people's feeling, because i can simply treat nothing happen and tmr will be a better day.
Isn't make life more easier and happier.
I don't mind being sad alone, or unhappy.
Is ok. I'm fine with it. That why some people may think i very unfriendly.

I think alot tonight. I really don't know what I want .
I just feel I'm so fucking useless. and i don't have the right to say or ask people to change.
I am the one who need a change in my attitude and character.
But that me, i really trying hard to change and open up. But that me, how.

I really trying hard. Regardless in my life, my work or anything that me involving.

Can i just die like that tmr.


Betrayal, lies, hatred, love, jealousy and more.
WTF is all this.

Fairy-tales are all faked, gladly accept that -_-
sound so sucks.

Why do things turn out to be like that.

There is saying which i posted on Fb recently ;
"God is like customer service of life"
But do they really know how to help us.

STAY AWAY FROM ME, I'M DEVIL.

Everything is really killing me. I feel so terrible and terrible.
Can i just die like that. Please grant my wish.
Living in this world is so miserable.

Love me for who i am.
Hate me for who i am, too.
Is so tired to be a human being, especially when a human being keep making mistakes.

Stupid, yeah, that me.

FUCK IT.

Let pray hard, i just die like that tomorrow =)

i so miss you.