Merry Christmas 2013.

Time flies. I nearly forgotten I have this blog at all. Is shown time didn't wait for anyone, and is fair enough.

2013 2013 2013
Well well well, happened so much things as usual.
Oh yes, i am in a relationship with someone whom i truly love and wanna get marry with. A guy i am willing to do so much and sacrifice so much just for him. Is started very random, YES, RANDOM is the word i will use. We so deeply in love with each other. Been through so much and just for him.
It may sound stupid, may think im a fool, that life. Everyone went through that stage, isnt it.

But sadly to say, people change without you even noticing or he able to put a mask in front of you and acted everything seems alright for you and him, caused you to fall deeper into his trap and you cant even pull yourself back when you started to realize everything is so fake to you.

YES, unfortunately is happened on me recently.
He change to someone i don't even recognize anymore. I been wondering is it me or him. He told me, i hurt him alot. But we went to BKK like 2 month ago, he started new job one month ago and he change to a person completing different from last time, 3 weeks ago.
I had insomnia for past 2 weeks, crying every night, trying to make myself tired, push myself to the extend and wanted me to fall apart and coma forever. Cant sleep till 5 am even i have to work next day. Wondering is it worth it. I just don't want to let go.
YES, I AM STUBBORN
I trying to figure out what go wrong between us. Is it he fall in love with someone? Is it he possess? Is it he want to focus his career? or he don't love me anymore. Or worst to come to worst. He just change?

Wanted to save this relationship so much, i can pretend nothing happened, pretend he is still the same, pretend and doesn't want to know what he did outside as long he is still by my side.
Is sound foolish and alot of people would say, " just give up", or "he don't love you anymore"
But i still hope and hope he will be touch by whatever i did for him.
I didn't ask for expensive gifts, i didn't ask for accompany everyday. i didn't complaint he cant come and pick me up from work. All i want is something is care and concern. Is it very hard.

Well Well Well, all i can do now is stay by his side, quietly support him in anyway i can.